It has been a revolution in the atmosphere, that's why I am telling you about it. Because all the experiences described in Savitri are precisely the experiences I have. So then, suddenly, in the body … I was over there in the music room, and Huta was reading to me; then when she had finished reading, all of a sudden the body sat up straight in an aspiration and a prayer of such intensity! It was a dreadful anguish, you know: "See, the whole experience is here, in me, complete, total, perfect, and because this thing, the body, has lived too long, it no longer has the power of expression." And it said, "But why, Lord? Why, why do You take away from me the power of expression because this has lived too long?" It was a sort of revolution in the body's consciousness.

Things have been much better since, much better. There has been a decisive change.

You see, it was the exact description of the body's present state, yet it constantly feels fragile, in a precarious balance. And then, with all its aspiration, it said, "But WHY? Why? … See, the experience is all there—why isn't it expressed?"

As always, I had the feeling that the Lord was laughing and saying to me, "But since such is your will, it will be that way!" Meaning simply: it's you who CHOSE to be like that.

And it's perfectly true. All our incapacities, all our limitations, all our impossibilities, it's this idiotic Matter that chooses them all - not with intelligence, but with a sort of feeling that "that's how things must be," that they are "naturally" like that. An adherence—an idiotic adherence—to the mode of the lower nature.

Then there was laughter, tears, a whole revolution, and afterwards all was fine.