The poet now describes the various stages of her waking
up on the fateful morning:
At first life grieved not in her burdened breast:
On the lap of earth's original somnolence
Inert, released into forgetfulness
Prone it reposed, unconscious on mind's verge,
Obtuse and tranquil like the stone and star.
At first she is still restful in the sleepy hours of
the earth; life in her is still inert, forgetful, stretched out in full repose.
Life has not yet come in the mental awareness. It is dull of sensation like the
stone and serene like the star. Grief is not yet felt on the surface though the
breast carries the load of the impending doom.
In a deep cleft of silence twixt two realms
She lay remote from grief, unsawn by care,
Nothing recalling of the sorrow here.
She is still in a deep belt of silence between the two
states of sleep and wakefulness, lying untouched by grief, unscratched by care,
unaware of the sorrow in the world.
Then a slow faint remembrance shadowlike moved,
And sighing she laid her hand upon her bosom
And recognised the close and lingering ache,
Deep, quiet, old, made natural to its place,
But knew not why it was there nor whence it came.
Then a vague memory, an indistinct remembrance, appears
and flits across like a shadow; there is some slight recollection and with a
sigh her hand moves to her bosom where she feels some movement. She recognises
there the ache, intimate and prolonging itself. It is not superficial, it is
deep; it is not a passing ache, it persists; it is not loud, it is quiet; she
recognises that it is not anything new that has come all of a sudden; it has
been there for so long that it has become natural to where she feels it. But
still does not know why it is there nor from where it has come.
The Power that kindles mind was still withdrawn:
Heavy, unwilling were life's servitors
Like workers with no wages of delight;
Sullen, the torch of sense refused to burn;
The unassisted brain found not its past.
Even though she has started feeling the ache, she is
not able to explain what it is because her mind is not yet active. Nature has
still withheld that power which activises the mind and enables it to analyse
and understand. Moreover, the sense-faculties which are the servants of life
are still dull, reluctant to move into activity. Like workers to whom wages of
joy are not paid, her senses are unwilling to exert themselves. They have not
yet reached the state where they can draw the pleasure of life; so they are indifferent.
The sense-torch is not burning. Her brain, which is not yet fully awake, is not
helped by nature to remember its past.
Only a vague earth-nature held the frame.
Her bodily frame is held together by an indistinct
earth-nature. The full force of that nature is not yet. [The author adds: These
lines lend themselves to another interpretation. They may be taken to delineate
the various stages in the growth of Savitri from the early days when she was
still carrying something of her native felicity and had not yet awakened to the
existence of suffering and evil in the world. She was a child nestling in the
lap of earth that was still warm and restful for her. She had forgotten why she
had come to earth; that memory had not yet emerged. Life was full of repose,
not yet developed enough for the full activity of the mind. It was dull of
sensation like the stone and serene like the star. Savitri was ensconced in the
But now she stirred, her life shared the cosmic load.
Now she wake up fully. Her life-spirit moves into
action to participate in the cosmic purpose.
At the summons of her body's voiceless call
Her strong far-winging spirit travelled back,
Back to the yoke of ignorance and fate,
Back to the labour and stress of mortal days,
Lighting a pathway through strange symbol dreams
Across the ebbing of the seas of sleep.
As she wakes up, the body call up the other faculties.
Her spirit which had traveled far elsewhere during the sleep of the night
returns and takes up the bueden of life, its ignorance and its fate, ready for
the labour and stress of this mortal world. Her spirit comes back through the
dream-land—full of symbols—lighting its pathway across the receding waters of
sleep.
Her house of Nature felt an unseen sway,
Illumined swiftly were life's darkened rooms,
And memory's casements opened on the hours
And the tired feet of thought approached her doors.
She feels a new pulsation from an unseen source; all
the nooks and corners of her life that were obscure are quickly lighted up and
the windows of her memory get fully opened. Even the thought-activity that had
slowed down comes back gradually into its own.